In the life of

You can’t rush time.  So why worry about what’s going to happen.  I say just enjoy time as it comes and bring on life with a  :)

This is an interesting feeling.  It’s like a battle but in this battle you receive help in winning the fight but without calling on it.  But regardless of having the help come to aid without knowing… your winning the fight…  It is a strange feeling.

I hope this goes where it seems like it is going.  I would love it so.

The heart beats faster as I write every message

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:).

Things have a way of working on their own schedule.  It has been hard to be on this path that I am currently on.  I wouldn’t change this path by all means.  I LOVE what I do for a living.  I mean I’m living my dreams and goals.  I love my family and friends.  I am financially well off and things are beautiful!  I can’t complain one bit…  

Its just… well… It would be nice to have someone here by my side.  It is nice to feel needed in a girls eyes.  It’s beautiful thing I think.  It’s not an easy thing seeing a lot of my friends through out my life fall in the path of love and still hold strong.  I have tried in that field don’t get me wrong.  It’s not like im just sitting around waiting for love to just knock at my door or anything.  I’ve done my part.  

I guess I really only had one real relationship in my past.  It was good while it lasted but ended up in ways I never understood.  Everything else since then hasn’t been anywhere close to love.  It is hard to put yourself out there and have that person decide to just walk away.  Its hard to deal with when I still care and they are for the most part gone.  It’s a tough thing to have to go through every time.  I can say that has happened to me more than I wished it had.  And I really don’t understand why at times.  To hear such reassuring words of a girl who seems like she would want to try and stay.  Then not to long later she is gone.  It is hard… The best I can do is learn from the past in hope for a better future.  

As far as I can remember love was something I’ve always wanted and strive for.  I am a hopeless romantic at heart even if i agree or disagree really haha.  Love is in everything I do.  My love for my work is beautiful.  I can’t get enough of what I do.  Haha call me a nerd but I spend time trying to learn more about animation while i’m taking a break from animation haha.  A friend onces told me that he saw that I have a passion for everything I do.  He see’s that once I see something I want I put my heart and soul in it.  It was a great thing to hear from him.  He is a good friend in my life.  That passion is at most when I am in love.  Although it’s hard to know how that feel now.  I still have no doubt she is out there.  Sometimes I wonder who/where she is at times.  Have i met her yet?  Is she closer than I may no or across the world?  Its the best mystery with the sweetest conclusion.  That’s the one I’m searching for…

Sometimes its okay to accept failure because in failing you relized that what you think you failed in is not worth your time.  As time goes on what is worth your time will present itself when the time is right.  Patience is a virtue.

In due time.